Boy, do I miss Meggie today! Maybe it's my awkward attempts to make new friends in this new area that makes me miss having such an established friendship even more. Who knows? Whatever the reason, I miss her extra.
In church someone shared a quote from the prophet Joseph F. Smith about those that have died. He said, "...how much more certain it is...that those who have been faithful, who have gone beyond... can see us better than we can see them; that they know us better than we know them....We live in thier presence, they see us, they are solicitous for our welfare, they love us now more than ever. For now they see the dangers that beset us;... their love for us and their desire for our well being must be greater than that which we feel for ourselves".
When I read the quote, I started bawling. It is such a blessing to have more knowledge about eternal life because of the continued revelation that we receive from modern prophets, and it was comforting to know that maybe when she isn't busy working on the other side of the veil, or isn't spending time watching over her family, that maybe she is watching over me. But then it hit me extra hard how much I wish that I could actually see her again. (I am sure the women around me were wondering why in the world I was crying when we were talking about revelation. Oh well, I guess I'm the new weirdo. What do ya do?)
Recently, my sister, Kathleen, sent me a video that she made of my little men of when she was watching them for me out in California at the end of June. I love everything about this video and am so thankful that she made it for me! While she is shooting them playing with the lizards, I was sitting in the hospital with Meggie and holding her hand as she lay in intense pain. And while she was filming us all walking around on the beach, my friend was being told that she didn't have much longer to live. There is something about the juxtaposed innocence and happiness of my little men against the pain and sorrow of Meggie's situation that is bittersweet to me. Even in the saddest moments, there is joy to be found. Thank goodness that we have children around to remind us of that!
Something about the music that she chose makes me think of Meggie. I don't know if Micah put this song in the slide show he made for her funeral or what, but both James and I somehow relate it to that day.
4 comments:
Malinda, you are one of the most amazing people I know! I wish I could still just pop over to your apartment to chat... Oh my goodness, those little boys are so adorable. The video made me miss playing with them so much!
Such a sweet post. And that video is my ver favorite! We watch it all the time to get our Sieg fix. :)
Thanks for sharing that quote. And thanks for the sweet comments you left on my blog. I know I've told you this before, but I'm so sorry about Meggie. Even though I didn't know her, I love hearing about her on your blog. She sounds like a beautiful person. Thanks again for sharing.
What a great post. For some reason I can read your posts at work but I can't comment in them! So here I am hours later just letting you know I love ya and I know that she is definitely watching over you too.
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